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i guess i've been busy, but i promise a huge update 2morw k??

denise!

11:32 PM - Wed-23-Jul-2008 - comments {0} - post comment

spring break is almost over. *tear*

hey every one. Spring break is almost over and it makes me sad. I wish I had more time off..hell I just want it to be summer. DAMN. I have a lot of stuff to do tomorrow. But it's cool. I'll manage. hmm. Well right now i'm pretty tired. But i'll update on each day of spring break in the morning.

loves u

<3denise

daft!

1:18 AM - Sun-30-Mar-2008 - comments {0} - post comment

monotony of a teenagers life.

A N S W E R - T R U T H F U L L Y

1. Do you like anyone?: maybe. idk kinda
2. Do they know it? oo no
3. Simple or complicated? pretty simple

IN - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U

4. Had sex: hell no. I’m a virgin
5. Bought something: yeah
6. Gotten sick?: no
7. Been hugged?:yeah
8. Felt stupid?:story of my life
9. Talked to an ex: no
10. Missed someone:yes
11. Failed a test: I don’t know..and I’m pretty sure I have no desire to find out
13. Danced: yeah
14. Gotten your hair cut?: nope
15. Lied:not that I recall

U N I Q U E

16. Nervous habits?:shaking,bite my nails, 
17. Are you double jointed?: ummm no
18. Can you roll your tongue?:yeah
19. Can you raise one eyebrow?: yeah, but it’s weird…I do it unintentionally sometimes.lol
20. Can you cross your eyes?: yeah
21. Do you make your bed daily?:not really
22. Do you think you are unique?:that’s what I’m told

H A V E - Y O U - E V E R'S

23. Said "I Love you": yeah, but now I realize I didn’t mean it
24. Given money to a homeless person: not directly
25. Smoked?: yeah
26. Waited all night for a phone call?: no
27. Snuck out?: yeah..a few times
28. Sat and looked at the stars?: yeah..it’s my fave thing to do

M A N N E R S

29. Do you swear/curse?: yeah, I have a bad mouth, get used to it
30. Do you ever spit?: lol on object?? umm no
31. You cook your own food?: no, mother doesn’t like me using the stove
32. You do your own chores?: yeah
33. You like beef jerky?: yep…but that doesn’t have anything to do with manners
35. You're happy with your life?: not really, but I’ll get over it
36. You own a dog?: yep I love doggys
37. You spend your money wisely?: I try

38. Do you like to swim?:yep it’s fun
39. When you get bored do you call a friend: no, I listen to music

D O - Y O U - P R E F E R'S

41. Flowers or angels?: angels
42. Gray or black?:black
43. Color or black and white photos?: color
44. Lust or love?:love
45. Sunrise or sunset?:sunset
46. M&Ms or Skittles?:m&ms
48. Staying up late or waking up early?: waking up early
49. Being hot or cold?: no preference..i like in between
50. Winter or Fall?: winter
51. Left or right?: left
52. Having 10 acquaintances or 2 best friends?: 2 best friends
53. Sunshine or rain?: rain

more have you evers;;

Sleep in a bed of the opposite sex?: yeah
Hooked up in the woods?: no
Drank a bottle of alcohol by yourself? yeah
Hooked up in the shower?: hell no
Been Dumped?: yeah
Stolen money from a friend?: no
Slept naked?: no
Been in a fist fight?:yeah
Snuck out of your house?: yeah
Had a crush on a teacher?: no
Seen someone die?: no
Been on an airplane? yea
Slept all day?:no
Missed someone so much it hurt?: yeah
Fallen asleep during school? yea
Been lonely?:yep
Cheated in a game?: no
Been to the ER?: yeah
Been in a car accident?: yeah
Had detention?: once
Missed your first love?:no
Cried yourself to sleep?: yeah
Sung in the shower?: yeah
Kissed a complete stranger?: …yeah
Laughed so hard you cried?: story of my life
Regretted hurting someone?: yeah
Regretted loving someone?: yeah
Been SUPER happy?: yeah

Well that’s it. Love you!

♥daft dynölium™

10:41 AM - Fri-28-Mar-2008 - comments {0} - post comment

hmmm

hmm
ok i lied. I can't sleep. I thinking about this guy....well a few guys. but theres this one. [not the one mentioned in previous note]

Lets call him Jelly Bean. Well like jelly bean and i are cool and everything, but like....a lot of people think he likes me. like A LOT of people. But when i asked my gurls to ask him he was like no...just as a friend. But it's soooo weird b/c like he tells all his friends at school that we're talking. I DON'T get it. why doesn't he just tell me if he likes me. Maybe guys are just like that sometimes. I bugs the mess out of me when they are like that. I hate guys who try and play hard to get...it bugs me sooooo much wow.

but give me ur opinion
should i ask him myself???
should i lead him on???
should i play hard to get??
flirt??

idk
give me ideas

<3Denise

1:19 AM - Fri-28-Mar-2008 - comments {0} - post comment

it was all just wishful thinking

Hey okay so I haven’t posted in a while but its all good. I’m doing it now. LOL. I’ve been okay I guess just really stressed about stuff and what not. I got progress reports last week and the were really good, but I feel like overly stressed in school. There has been a lot of D.R.A.M.A going on in our class and I’m really just sick of it. I switched tables at lunch because the people I sit w/ really seem fake to me….but idk. Brandi and I have been hanging out a lot, which is cool or whatever but like she drinks a lot…like every weekend. it’s crazy. and I wasn’t apposed to it until like last weekend. I went to this party w/sheedah and like I got really really messed up. I mean it’s okay when I do it w/Brandi because she’s like half drunk anyway. But Sheedah doesn’t drink AT ALL. And she had to take care of me an I felt really bad. So I promised myself that I was going to try and stop drinking or whatever. The problem is that this weekend Bran wants me to hang w/her…and she told me she’s gonna get wasted. And  I don’t know if I want to be around her doing that because I like owe her. But idk. On a better note I’m probably getting my lisence in about a month. I don’t turn 16 till July 4, but my mom is going to have surgery and will be physically handicap. In Missouri, law says if one of your parents are physically handicap you can get your liscense when your 14. Which is pretty cool. But I do hope her surgery goes well. but yeah idk, I’ll see how that goes. Well I think I’m gonna post again in the morning when I’m more awake. But I love all of you who read these.

<3Denise

P.S.

I forgot

theres this one guy…

and he’s gonna stay close to my heart

because he got my new guitar pics..LOVE IT!!

12:58 AM - Fri-28-Mar-2008 - comments {0} - post comment

Away

every moment is spent in my dreams

now, for me, life only means

that since you were in my arms

I have dwelt among the stars

shadows fly across the night

cast away by the loving sight

of you smiling in the light

on the day

you went away

in my dreams

now

to my chest, my quilt I clutch

in my sleep I want you so much

to hold you again

with no clear end

no tomorrow, no good-byes

no more lonely aching sighs

only a hope

to find a place

where I belong

in the heart of your song

sing until we watch the dawn

side by side

in sweet dreams

because the only part of life that’s real

is the way you make me feel

that only part (my heart)

longs to kiss you still

on the day you come back home

yeah If you read this…….it’s something I wrote about alex. i know it’s kinda dorky..Thanks for reading if you did

6:23 PM - Fri-14-Mar-2008 - comments {0} - post comment

))((#!*more ramblings*!#))((

Don’t waste your time worrying about boys, they will come and go. Don’t waste your time caring about the people who don’t like you, chances are you don’t like them either. Don’t waste your time worrying if people are talking about you, you affected their lives, and they didn’t affect yours. Waste your time with friends--live for the moment, laugh often, be immature, do anything and everything. If it’s something you'll regret in the morning, sleep late and when you wake up, laugh about it with your friends because your friends are what matter most. When you have your friends, you have everything.

One day I'm going to look back on today & realize how stupid of a teenager I was. How shallow people could be. & I'm going to realize that if I could do it all over again, I'd make the same choices. Because come to think of it, I've learned a lot..

it's just something that happens as you grow up. You realize it's less important to have more friends & it's more important to have real ones

do u ever wonder what your life looks like through someone else's eyes?

I’m the kind of person that laughs at a joke 3 times
once » when it’s told
twice » when it’s explained
& 5 minutes later when I finally get it..

I know that life seems hard, cruel, and unkind, a lonesome journey with questions in your mind. I’ll hold your weary hand as you walk down the road. Just remember you’re never alone. Whenever you need someone, whenever you want someone to reach out and touch you with a love that is strong, whenever you need somebody whenever you want a friend to chase always the clouds and then the sunshine again. I will be your friend always and forever.

Living in a fantasy world is great for a while. You chose your path, never make mistakes, find the buried treasure, become the queen, and always get your prince. But once in a while it’s nice to get back to the real world. Sure you wont always get your way and you hardly ever get your prince. Those things are all nice when you think about them but the reality of actually getting them is even better. You pick your own path and learn from your mistakes. You find true friends and look for your true love. Not everyone will like you and you’ll have to deal but along the way you will learn who your real friends are. Fantasy is great but reality is even better

life is an opportunity      …benefit from it
life is a beauty         ...admire it
life is a dream         …realize it
life is a challenge    …meet it
life is a duty            …complete it
life is a game          …play it
life is a promise      …fulfill it
life is sorrow           …overcome it
life is a song           …sing it
life is a struggle       …accept it
life is a tragedy       … confront it
life is an adventure  …dare it
life is luck               ... make it
life is life                 ... fight for it.

                        -Mother Teresa

i love him.                          i love him.
i love him. i love               him i love him. i
love him. i love him. i love him. i love him. i
love him. i HATE him. i love him. i love him.
i love him... i love him. i love him. i  love
 him. i love him. i love him... i love
him. i  love him. i love him.
i love him. i love him.
i love him. yeah,
i do love
him.

Some fear the dark. I embrace it. It’s the only place where my eyes are blind, and my soul wanders freely from the truth of reality.

You can be told that your gorgeous everyday and people say you’re beautiful in every way but you don’t believe it – not for one minute because the boys whose opinion means the most won’t admit it……..(this one is so true it’s scary)

5:02 PM - Sun-3-Feb-2008 - comments {0} - post comment

tonight is going to be fun

hey ever1. sorry I haven't posted in so long. I've been really busy with mock trial and everything. Tonight I'm going to Brandii's house and me,her, doug, and amanda are going to hang. It's gonna be soo much fun..i'll write all about it when i get back....but that's all for not..ttyl

denise

m.u.c.h.l.o.v.e

12:36 PM - Sat-26-Jan-2008 - comments {0} - post comment

another interesting day in the boring life of denise.

♥denise

4:40 PM - Sun-13-Jan-2008 - comments {0} - post comment

first post yay

well, i’m gonna get off of erics laptop.lol

so ttyl

♥ denise

8:55 PM - Sat-12-Jan-2008 - comments {0} - post comment

..gack

hey I have kno idea. I haven't posted on here in a while, but since it's almost 2008 I thought that it would be good to start again. I've been ok. Life has been pretty hard this semester tho. I've been having with a new group of people. It like I don't know who my friends are. I hate it. I feel like my old friends, people who I would go to when things would get really hard for me, have like forgotten about everything. I just wish I could go somewere where I would truly fit in. That is all I want right now. I hang with people and that's all cool, but idk..I just get this weird feeling deep down inside. lol, for my 2008 new years resolution i'm going to try and be nicer to people and try to find out who i am. I kno i say that every year..but i might just try and learn how to cut down on sarcasm. idk. I really want to be pretty. I know pretty is just a state of mind but seriously, i'm going to start eating less and exsersizing more and i might not be pretty then, but at least i won't be as fat. 2008 is opening up soo many things that i didn't realise before. I have 2 1/2 years till I move out of my mother house, I should at least try to not be a bitch to her somedays. And next year, mixers won't be as fun with all the underclassmen. I fault myself for not going to more.lol. And as for the people who i know are my friends, i love you guys. I hope that this year is good. It's kind of starting out rough I know, but for school on Thursday I hope things change. This is about it for now...last post of the year..yippie.

stay safe tonight

pray for me (going to a party in 15 min)

and have a happy new year

10:59 PM - Sat-29-Dec-2007 - comments {0} - post comment

exams next week{[(damnit)]}

I haven’t been on here in forever! I’ve been okay, I guess. Today was an F day. It’s funny because I have like 4 B+’s and I’m not even stressing to get them to A’s…in fact I’m don’t even think I’m trying

Like today

1/2- Spanish- had a party, ate bagels, watched mean girls

3/4- Open- stayed in Kelly, finished watching mean girls, talked to Kaycee, got nothing done

5/6- World Areas - people finished giving their presentations…so again, got nothing done

7/8- Open- stayed in Neumann, basically just fooled around, attempted to study for vocab, played the penis game with tobi after she gave me an abstinence card(lol), then just talked to erin, daralynn, casey, kelly, and tobi again.

9- Open- went to Roth, attempted to study for vocab, didn’t really talk, or do much of anything…just looked at the clock.

10- Lunch- talked about some strangely interesting topics

11/12- Algebra- try to listen to yorg’s review, got bored with that and attempted to study for vocab, started to get the essay questions from emily then I didn’t feel like it and went back to attempting to study

13/14- Open(TEST) - Vocab…..and actually didn't do that bad

15/16- Peer Group- didn’t have anything specific to do, so we just talked about life, addresses ,child molesters and lesbians

So this has been my day. I mean I was starting to freak about finals but then I realized that I am only going to be 14 once, and I’m only going to have a freshman year in high school once...and if I ever want to be spontaneous the time is now. I’m not saying I’m gonna go off and fuck school, trust me I’m really far from that, but I shouldn’t be stressed out all the time about school. I should tell the people who hate to fuck off and that I haven’t done anything to them. I shouldn’t deny caring about what people say about me.. I should really just learn to get over it .  And most importantly…I should be my self. Not some dumb fuck bitch that only cares about getting straight A’s and doing as much extra credit as she can.

This will probably only last for today…but i will live it up while it last

Anarchy you mother fuckers!!!!!........ (And that was a vocab word)

8:15 PM - Fri-15-Dec-2006 - comments {0} - post comment

hey it's been a while

yeah...well the power went out on thursday...but luckily we got out of school earliy and didn't have school on friday. yeah we bought a generater and then 5 hours later the power came back on. Last night i listening to The Used....i did all night. I feel refreshed now. Here's a quote:

Don't buy into bullshit. Don't admire false icons. We are just humans, not heroes. Think for yourself and stand up for what you believe is right. Don't be afriad to break sterotypes. Be true to yourself.

- Branden Steineckert

from the used

5:06 AM - Sun-3-Dec-2006 - comments {0} - post comment

...

hey everyone. ¿como estas? I’m feeling a little better as far as the last thing i talked about on here. wow though. Like i said before...i think this is just one of those weeks when everything is haywire. So Tuesday i went to school and did homework most of the day after that. Everything has been soooo crazy and like idk...i’m just really glad the week is over... On Wednesday I had an OBA meeting. WOW...we had the BEST conversation ever. It was about how hip-hop is a bad influence on African Americans. That was one of the best conversations ever. I love OBA. And as much school get on my nerves...i love it too. Not only like the school but like there are so many people who i look up to at incarnate. It’s wonderful. OMG though...Thursday was the best. I had step practice. Even though I’m in group 2 i still love it with a passion. Like and it was fun because we all had finish doing our steps and stuff so we just kinda hung out until we reviewed with group 1. Yeah, it was kinda like “group 2 bonding”. Yeah and Krichell (sp?) had her camera and was taking all kinds of pictures and things. I love that girl! The pics we took were extremely random! It was great...Then we get to today. WOW. This is been one of the most hectic days this year. Like everything was due and I had to get things checked and turned in and crap...it was crazy. And i was pretty much confused all day! But yeah not doing any thing this weekend soo…if you wanna do something call me! I love everyone…and don’t you forget it.

Adios

Denise

11:07 PM - Fri-10-Nov-2006 - comments {0} - post comment